What follows is a deeply personal piece written as I lay on my bed post shower contemplating life. If you don’t want to read intimate details of my sex life stop now.
We live in a world of immediacy. Must do this, must do that, now now now.
This doesn’t seem to only apply to work, home, TV etc but also sex. The need to achieve something, both for the man and the woman seems paramount.
Did you cum?
That is probably the worst question you can ever ask your partner. Trust me if she/he did you would know.
Although if you asked me the answer would probably be no. Because I can’t. I can fuck for what seems like hours without finishing.
I have through years of back issues and other related problems lost a degree of sensation in my extremities that means that variously; I can stub a toe to the point of making it bleed, cut a finger or stab myself in the leg all without feeling it particularly.
Hardly ideal in day to day life.
Sexually it’s both a blessing and a curse. Your average lady will enjoy it for a while and then it becomes quite boring, relentless even. By the time I’m getting somewhere she’s already thinking about what to cook for dinner and often getting quite sore.
Medication I take for other things only compounds the problem. Antidepressants are often SSUI based. They slow the processing of Serotonin which means you’re always on that little bit of a high. However Serotonin is used to treat premature ejaculation, hardly ideal in my situation.
There is no cure, at least according to the medical professionals I’ve spoken to. We’re it erectile difficulties I suffered from I could take any number of little pills and wayhey! I’ve tried various sensation boosting creams and the like but for some reason the manufacturers pair them with things designed to delay ejaculation. Unhelpful.
Even masterbation doesn’t work. I’ve often done more harm than good by persisting. Trust me a red raw cock is not a pleasant thing to try keep under control at work.
I’m not looking for sympathy, empathy maybe because I surely can’t be alone.
